On “Finding Spiritual Whitespace”

{This post is part of the “Finding Spiritual Whitespace Blog Tour” which I am a part of, along with a group of soulful, journeying kindreds. To learn more and join us, CLICK HERE!}FindingWhitespace_alt3D

Me: “I am too afraid of unleashing the emotions that go along with my reaction to this book. I am afraid that as I start writing, the dam is going to break and the tears are going to pour….”

P: “That’s ok love. This is entirely normal when you are dealing with something so emotionally powerful.”

The dialogue above is a text message exchange between my husband and me, discussing Bonnie Gray’s book, Finding Spiritual Whitespace. To say Bonnie’s book is “emotionally powerful” is incredibly accurate. Not only that, I would go so far as to say this book is full of eye-opening truths that every person needs to hear read.

I have always known that I am fairly skilled at avoidance, but not until reading this book did I realize just how much I have honed this skill. When my copy of Finding Spiritual Whitespace arrived, I was naively giddy about its content. Little did I know, Bonnie’s personal story was about to impact my soul, my story in so many beautiful ways. Coincidentally, the book arrived on my birthday. Looking back on that now, I could not think of a more perfect way to begin my twenty-seventh year.

From the first chapter to the very end, I felt as though Bonnie was speaking directly to me. Debilitating panic attacks? Check. Depression? Sadly, yes. Feelings of abandonment? Again, yes. During her time healing from the open wounds of her childhood, Bonnie discovers “spiritual whitespace,” which she defines as “places to enjoy soul rest with God” (p. 13), and “a journey to discover the authentic you” (p. 80).

Bonnie’s idea of “spiritual whitespace”–in essence, soul rest–is something everyone should consider adhering to in order to keep from just “getting by”, just “being okay.” As I read Bonnie’s words, I found years of repressed memories from my childhood floating up to the surface and staring me square in the face. In addition to the journaling prompts at the end of each chapter, Bonnie’s raw vulnerability encouraged me to mull over my long-avoided memories and provided the strength to gradually process my repressed past. With the focus here being on Bonnie’s story, not on mine, I will refrain from sharing details of these memories.

I am still in the process of finding “spiritual whitespace” myself, but what I have learned thus far is that this journey is well worth it. I strongly encourage all of you to embark on the path to find spiritual whitespace and soul rest for yourselves.

I will leave you with some food for thought: “Perfect peace from God isn’t found by forgetting. Peace is ours if we dare to remember our pain and our sorrow, and experience our fears fully with Jesus” (p. 76). Emotionally powerful? I definitely think so.

FSW God uses broken pieces

Bonnie Gray is the writer behind Faith Barista.com who wrote a book about her inspiring, heart-breaking journey to find rest, which garnered Publisher’s Weekly starred review. I’m taking the journey to find rest through this guidebook and invite you to read it too.  You can get a copy HERE.